GRATITUDE is the best thing you can do for yourself!
GRATITUDE is the best thing you can do for yourself!
“I HAVE LEARNT SILENCE FROM THE TALKATIVE, TOLERANCE FROM THE INTOLERANT, AND KINDNESS FROM THE UNKIND: AND YET STRANGE, I AM GRATEFUL TO THOSE TEACHERS.” Khalil Gibran
I have been spending most of my time on my google+ page, please come and visit me there:
I understand my site can be heavy and uncomfortable sometimes and yet so many people support me.
It’s difficult for me at times but I am satisfied that SPEAKING UP is the right thing for me to do in this regard. But, I will say that putting documents up means I have to go over them again. They made me wrench in pain and tears the first 10 times I had to read them so it’s a process for me; but will do it as soon as I can.
I am touched beyond words at the kindness of all of you and will remember this experience for the love and support not the pain. The pain will diminish as time goes on and this is part of the process. Bless you all.
PS. From time to time I get a little behind but it’s not because I don’t value you and enjoy reading about your lives and challenges.
I have been somewhat lazy this summer in many regards albeit it has been more redirected.
I have been playing with my www.google/+LouiseFowlerVancouver site. Mostly because I have this new Windows 10 and some new (free) apps for photos and art to play with. I want so much to get my creativity back. As a child I took art lessons with (what was to become a famous artist in South Africa) Nina Campbell Quine. So it is there somewhere.
My http://www.louisefowler.com site has been (probably) temporarily redecorated but I think it looks too happy. Its a serious subject that I take equally seriously and am compelled to move forward on it. Therefore, I believe the responsible thing for me to do is take my time. And that I am doing.
I am also dealing with some health issues which must take priority. Having said that I have soooo much I need and want to say so it is my mission to continue.
It is such a joy and privilege to interact with my fellow blogger. Supporting them use their voices to say what must be said is a priority. Racing to get higher and higher numbers is interesting but not that important to me because then its hard to get to know the individuals heart. What great people we have among us.
Thank you all for your support of me.
PS: Most of us know www.disruptedphysician.com . I reblogged one of his post, as you can see. It’s an important read. My thanks to the doctor.
I have been hanging out in “My Secret Garden” that I have created at www..google.com/+LouiseFowlerVancouver on my site. I am not ignoring this site at all but it takes a lot out of me sometimes. I want to be deliberate with my words here and I feel I need to play a bit which I can do on the google+ site.
I have been thinking a lot recently about laying all my feelings out on the internet and I have asked myself, is it worth it?
Of course, I do it for myself first and foremost to give cubic dimension to my thoughts and feelings. To help me compartmentalize what is happening for me and work through my issues and come to some resolution. But, I would also hope that if my journey helps just one person, it is worth all of it.
That one person will interact with so many people during their lives. If your example helps them make a decision that changes the trajectory of their lives in a positive way, why would you not want to?
I believe success is not about the numbers in the business of blogging but about connections and what you do with those moments in time. The kind word, the gentle nudge, the affirmation of “I’m here”, the confirmation of everyone’s value and contribution is what it is all about, for me.
I don’t want to race for the number but relish in the connections.
Mystic aka Dinky (sometimes Dinky Doo)
Mystic and I were very close friends for almost 18 years. I brought her home when she was just 4 weeks old. We had a long time together. She was a wonderful girl and companion. She loved to play with the toilet tissue, as you can see. It was hard to catch her at it never mind take a picture; luck was on my side; she even posed lol Usually, of course, I would just see the results and no kitty in sight.
My bed is very high and when she was younger she would leap up with no problem at all. Of course as she aged that leap got more and more difficult. So at some point I said to Mystic, “now, come on let me help you”. she would have no part of that. She would wiggle and squirm until I let her go. Anyone who has had a cat knows exactly what I mean. One day I said to her “now, Dinky you are going to be doing that until the day you die”. “You just wont let me help you”. Well guess what, the night before she died she struggled to get up on my bed, but I left her to do it because I new that is what she wanted. She got up and curled around and went to sleep. In the morning she died.
I think I am much like my Dinky.
You know when you feel like I do, not feeling present in the world in some ways and not wanting to be, it is very difficult to be mindful of your body, what you are eating, how you dress – everything.
For several years, then for several more years I was caregiver to my mother; at first going over from Vancouver to Victoria to help in some small way; then bringing her over to stay with me for the last couple of years.
It was a very very stressful time for my mother and me, mixed with the joy of being together. No elderly person should be spending the last years of their lives fighting for the money/property that belonged to them, but that is the way it was.
Anyone who has been care-giver to anyone knows the deal around caring for another human being, that depends on you for everything. I subjugated my mindfulness to the care of my mother. That is the way it was, had to be and was my privilege to do. So when she was literally dying I had spent weeks not knowing if I had eaten, had any water, bathed. I had a bladder infection. All ladies know what that feels like – I ignored it. So 5 hours before she died I collapsed. Falling on my foot and fracturing it. When I called the ambulance, leaving my mother in someones care (sent by Coastal Health Authority) the paramedics said (apparently) to the emergency they thought I was about to die my blood pressure was so low.
My point is read blogs like http://dreambigdreamoften.co/ is where we can learn about Mindfulness. When we loose the ability to be mindful we let go of our personal power. It does not help you, or anyone around you, to let go of mindfulness.
Mindfulness is an essential ingredient to the life force. I can tell you from experience if you let go you let go of life. Be mindful!