Writing is hard for me, always has been difficult. I learnt when I was about 40 years old I am dyslexic. I grew up just thinking I was stupid.
I see how well so many people express themselves and I feel frustrated that I can’t write well also. If we were talking I would communicate well. In fact verbal communication is something I can do well.
I can’t tell you how many times I have felt worried, embarrassed and shamed at my inability to express myself the way I would like to in writing. I have turned down jobs and worked hard at not putting myself in a difficult situation where I was expected to read something.
It is now my firm belief that trauma is what caused the learning disability. How stressed and upset I am really shows in my writing. The worse my state of trauma the worse my writing becomes.