Who controls your narrative?
Mine has been controlled by others, I am taking my power back. One could rightfully argue that “exposing” oneself, like I am is folly. But, when your narrative has been controlled by others and exposed by people who have things to hide leaves one no choice. Except of course to remain a victim.
GASLIGHTING is a form of psychological abuse used by narcissists in order to instill in their victim’s an extreme sense of anxiety and confusion to the point where they no longer trust their own memory, perception or judgment. The techniques used in “Gaslighting” by the narcissist(s) are similar to those used in brainwashing, interrogation, and torture that have been used in psychological warfare by intelligence operative, law enforcement and other forces for decades.. Narcissistic Behavior
I realize that many people see me as being a person in control. That has not always been true. In fact a good deal of the time it was just “bluff”. When you are 13 years old and alone, on the streets, betrayed, deserted, abused (physically and mentally) and molested you have two choices, succumb to the pressures and pain of the life you are expected to survive or you dig down deep and find ways and means to survive the life you have been dealt.
This didn’t happen over night, in fact it has taken decades to come to terms with “what has happened to Louise”. Over my life time I have heard it said many times, “what is the matter with Louise?” Said by the perpetrators. Now it is my turn. Louise is fighting back. Hence MY NARRATIVE called “MY EXAMINED LIFE”.
When people want to hide who they are they look for the most vulnerable to hide behind. That person was me.
When people have an agenda of greed to line their own pockets they look to shift the blame, that person was me.
My mother came from a very long line of aristocrats. Why do I care? Well the internet is filled with the names and history of this line of English nobles. My mother’s name is on it and so will mine, sooner or later. I will not allow the narrative of people who had an agenda of greed to rewrite my narrative to suit them. I will not allow this distorted, untrue and evil version to follow me into infinity.
