I started this site because I needed to pay homage to my mother. She was shattered by the extraordinary attack by her step children on her, her husband and me. It set in motion such pain and devastation that she killed herself.
It took her 14 days to die. She died on February 5th, 2013.
This picture I took was taken several months after I reentered her life, after approximated 20 years estrangement. The estrangement took place as a result of abuse in her previous marriage to my father and the trauma that damaged both of us. It came easier to cope separately rather than together.
This picture was taken in a blissful period when we were happy and content in our ability to over come, forgive and live in the gratitude of new beginnings.
She had no idea that a monster storm was brewing and was on it’s way in her direction. A storm that shattered lives and took this feisty little lady down.But not without a huge fight.
I stood by her side. I was her daughter, protector, caregiver and friend. We lived with the most remarkable peace together amidst the viciousness and arrogance of her step-children.What forgiveness will do for your soul is beyond words.
After she died I came down with a massive thud.
For 3 years I could hardly get out of bed. If I didn’t have this blog, I don’t want to say what I would have done.But I am pretty sure that it wasn’t going to be good.
For 3 years I was paralyzed, in so much pain I couldn’t even cry. Dying wasn’t coming fast enough. I begged God to let me die.
On February 5, 2016 I went to bed that Saturday at 4 am. I woke up at 6 am, 2 hours later. I opened my eyes and said to myself “I think I will get up”. I went into my office, in my apartment, and caught up with my office work, holly cow. I went into the kitchen and made breakfast, holly cow. I got dressed and went for a very long walk. I then went grocery shopping and came home and cooked an actual meal, holly cow. I will tell you some other time what I believe contributed to this seminal moment.
There are a million lessons in this experience. What people do to each other. What greed does to a person/s. How to stay centered in your focus (mine was to be with and love my mother) nothing was going to destroy that, and didn’t.
Now is the time to move on.
I will talk about the case of Houston V. Houston again and talk more about the lessons learnt. but I want to take in more stuff now into my life. I want to focus on a broader spectrum and perspective on my world, the world and the meaning of life. That should keep me busy for awhile.
I also want to find forgiveness for the HOUSTON CLAN but I am not there yet. I will work through that over the weeks and perhaps months. That is my goal. I will leave them to KARMA.
Thank you folks for being my friend/follower. Look forward to catching up with all your sites.
A SPECIAL NOTE: If it wasn’t for Jason being my 1st follower, and all the help he gave me I don’t know what I would have done.